Memorial Day 2016

photo cred: Mark Bradford

Today we remember those who paid the ultimate sacrifice to their county. Today we also send extra prayers to those family members who are left behind. Their whole lives have changed because the ones they loved never came home again. Gosh, just wrap your head about that for a moment... never came home again. :( That's basically my nightmare and not something I let myself think about too often. When my hubby is deployed I try to just think of it as a long trip, and not what's truly happening. I walk a fine line between reality and not letting myself go there in my head. Sadly, this is the reality that lots of widows and family members face. We've known several people in the last few years who have been killed and it absolutely breaks my heart thinking about their families today, and let's be real... all days.

Today we thank you for your service to our great country. Today, we pray for people to continue to stand up for the morals and values of this nation. We stand in awe of the sacrifice that these brave men and women have made and we promise to never forget them.  Thank you for the willingness to defend us, because not everyone can do that job.  God bless our military and God bless our military families.

Random Friday Favorites

It's finally Friday! It has felt like Friday since about Wednesday... which is the worst lol! I'm so excited for the weekend and for the wedding festivities to continue. We went to dinner at the bride's parent's house last night and holy moly the food was yummy!! We also got to spend some time with Emiko... I love that little lady!

I've been reading One Plus One by Jojo Moyes and I have to be honest... it didn't start out great. I feel like a lot of Moyes' books start soooo slow. It took me awhile to get into it but I really like it so far. I'm also still reading Weird Sisters but I've had a hard time getting into it. :( I found a few books at Target that I am adding to my reading list as well. I'm so excited about this Mary Kubica book! I LOVED Good Girl. If you haven't read it yet, you need to ASAP!

Can summer be here already so I can actually workout and read lol??? That's what I am most excited about!

We went on a sunset walk the other night and it was perfect. I love walking at the Cliffs and the fact that Mark was there and our pups, made it even better.

I've been sick all week, well recovering from being sick I guess lol, so I've been blowing my nose a ton. Where does it all come from?? Gross! You know when you blow your nose a ton and you end up getting a rash/ dry red area around your nose?? Yep, I had that going on this week. Not cute. Well I used the Rodan+ Fields Soothe step 2 (sensitive skin treatment) and it's GONE!! I'm so excited. I should have taken a picture but of course I didn't think about it at the time. I love this stuff for sunburns, sensitive skin, rashes, and my random red patches I get on my chest.

I'm back to LOVING my It Cosmetics CC cream. I recently repurchased the Medium shade since the Light was looking a little fair on my skin. The Medium is perfect and really blends well with my skin tone. This is must for the summer since it has an SPF of 50. I still use a moisturizer with SPF because too much sun protection can't hurt!

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Thank you again for all of the love on my "When Life Doesn't Go As Planned..." post. You guys are the best! :) I hope everyone has a great weekend and remember the reason for the extra day off. So proud to come from a military family!

When Life Doesn't Go As Planned

Raise your hand if you've ever had a plan but then something went haywire. Lol yes, me too! Mark and I joke that every time we planned a surprise or a date for each other, something would go wrong. I got Mark and myself tickets to Opening Day for the Padres one year. I bought the all-you-can-eat section and we came to the game starving. Sadly, when we got to our seats we realized that they were not all-you-can-eat, and $80 later we were full of hotdogs and nachos lol. The good news is that we had GREAT seats!

Another example, Mark planned a romantic getaway to Julian for my birthday/ Valentine's day. The hotel he booked was a cute little hole-in-the-wall hotel, or so we thought. He specifically picked this place because they included a wine tour. When we got to the room to check-in, we found out the wine tours ended the hour before... bummer. The real surprise was when we pulled around to the back to park by our room. The place was super run down and looked like the perfect place for a murder movie to be filmed lol. The water in our room was brown and Mark slept with his gun next to the bed. Also, we both got sick from dinner! Oh man lol. We ended up having a great time but we always laugh at our misadventures.

Well there are some things in life that go wrong and they aren't things that you look back and laugh at, or even think fondly of afterwards. They are heart-wrenching, gut-check type moments/ seasons of life. I feel like we are in one of those seasons right now. I spoke pretty openly about our infertility struggles in a post about a month ago. If you missed it click here to read it. I was shocked by the amount of people who reached out and are going through something similar or who just wanted to send some prayers and love our way. It's amazes me every time I find myself being vulnerable, that people will just surround us with love. It reminds me of how many kind, compassionate, and good people we have in our lives.

I cry just thinking about the sweet texts, emails, and calls I get on a weekly basis from people just checking in. A little note saying, "How's everything going? Any news?" makes my day. Thank you, thank you, thank you! On top of that, the prayer warriors that have come beside me, bless me in more ways than they could ever know.

So are our struggles over? Nope, we are smack dab in the middle of still trying to have a baby and figure out why my body isn't along for the ride. It's frustrating, hurtful, sad, beyond irritating, and can be all-consuming.

So what do we do in the mean time? Sometimes I want to curl up in my bed and cry... and sometimes that happens... whoops. What I really should be doing is focusing on the things I can control, like my attitude and my focus. I didn't come up with this idea on my own though. My friend Katie is an awesome writer and has a blog, A Kup of Katie. She's so stinking adorable and her blog is packed full of positivity and motivational content. You should definitely check it out!

Katie and I recently had a conversation where she reminded me that I can always control how I respond to my situation. We need to give ourselves time to process what is happening and how we are going to look at our circumstances. I can't change the fact that I am not pregnant but I can allow myself time with God to ask for His patience and strength. I can choose to focus on the things that make me happy, not as a distraction but as a way to feel true joy. I am the queen of distracting myself and that's not healthy either.

So I'm making a conscious effort to not let my situation define me and to choose joy despite how I am really feeling.  I'm choosing to thank God for the people He's brought into our lives, especially during this time. I'm choosing to be grateful for the many people who have come along side us and not shied away from this "uncomfortable" topic. I'm choosing to be a prayer warrior myself and pray boldly for those around us dealing with life circumstances that are not what they planned. I am challenging you to do the same. Reach out to someone who is going through a tough time... it doesn't matter if you haven't talked in years. You might just change the way they look at life!

Wedding Weekend

This was a FULL weekend with lots of wedding activities. We had a great time though and we loved celebrating the new Mr. & Mrs. Carroll. Here is a little picture recap...

The Rehearsal dinner was a Harbor cruise- so fun!

My attempt at False lashes- it only took me 6 times lol

The beautiful bride and groom

The reception overlooked the Padres stadium. Such an incredible venue!

We had such a fun weekend! Now for the Quinn wedding festivities! We are ready :)

Confessions: Life Update

Bentley- He's such a cute baby :) 

First of all, this is my 200th post! What??? Crazy right? I've loved having this little space to share my random thoughts and all the things I'm passionate about. Thank you for joining me on this adventure and reading my posts. It means the world! :)

We have been so dang busy and have been out of town the last few weekends. Mark has been gone for work a ton too and he came home on Wednesday! YAY! It was only a few weeks but he's been working out of town so much lately, that it makes me miss him even more.

Slowly but surely, I am starting to feel more comfortable without foundation. I'm only wearing mascara and a little blush here :) Thank you Rodan+ Fields!

We have a busy weekend coming up with a friend's wedding and then another wedding next weekend, with multiple events leading up to it. Mark's cousin is actually the one getting married next weekend and we are so excited to be with the family and of course to see her say "I do!" We love Michael and are so happy that he's joining the family. :)

The school year is coming to an end but this doesn't mean we are winding down yet. Our events seem to triple in the last few weeks of school and its just crazy town right now lol. I will miss my sweet kiddos so much but I'll be so happy for a break. We've already crossed off several things and now we just need to get through an ice cream party (x2 actually), field day, Celebration of Learning practices, an awards party, and the last day of school is the Celebration of Learning performance. We can do this, right??

Sadly, I'm still not pregnant, but we are hoping to get some answers this week. It's frustrating but I'm trying to stay positive and hope for the future. I truly believe the Lord has a plan for us but I would just love a little insight to what that is lol... anyone else with me??

We finally tried the Baked Bear in Pacific Beach yesterday. It's an ice cream sandwich shop, YUM! It might have been a little too rich for me... is that even a thing haha? It was a delicious treat though!

My dear friends Stacee and Matt just welcomed a sweet little baby boy to the world. I couldn't be happier for them!!! :) I can't wait to meet you baby Quinn!

I hope you all have a great weekend!